I think I learned something new about myself today. I was made to be a father. I mean it! All along, I was a father- trapped in a normal mans body. It feels so right, and so easy, and so normal and natural for me, and as I look back on my life, I realize that all along, it was my fathering instincts that helped make me ready for this hour.

I remember soon after high school, a group of friends went to C-stone fest, and I helped organize, and did most of the driving and stuff... several of them took to calling me dad - even though I was about the same age. And again in college I remember it happening. Even years ago, I was called dad by members of the youth group. In all instances, I think it was a kind word, they saw me as protective, and a compassionate leader (to say nothing for the grey hair.)

One of my spiritual gifts is teaching. Not necissarily preaching to big groups, but mostly in other areas, one on one and stuff... it just comes naturally to me. I think a good dad is a good teacher.

anyway, I know there are hard days ahead, but it feels perfect today. I'm excited about the coming months - getting to know Maria better and stuff. Candace is such a great mom already - and I think we are a great team.

Tonight we went on our very first outing together... Bible Quizzing was at Zion, and we couldn't resist. As far as I was concerned Maria was the main attraction, and I was on top of the world.

Maria slept the whole time, and hardly opened her eyes. I wasnt sure if she would wake up content, or hungry, but when she finally woke up, we decided we better get home for her meal.

Everyone at quizzing agreed with me... she's one beautiful babe - and the pictures on this site just don't do her justice.